Thursday, June 25, 2009
give me my novocaine.. in the need for it to numb my senses to way way way numb. i figured, if i dont do this, i cant sleep, period.. the mind games can simply kill me to the point of just kill me for real and end it now.. at times i figured, its like having a ball hitting you on the head and you not knowing it was coming at all.. its just WHAM! and that's it.. you're on the ground. I wonder why i tolerate with this? Is it because its part and parcel of life and how things are in nature or is it because I am at fault in the first place? or is it because that is how things should be, an up and down, yin and yang, winner and loser etc
i cant never really say or tell which would really apply.. perhaps its a mixture of all of that was mentioned.. people learn new things everyday (no matter how insignificant), somehow errors and faults always points back an arrow all the way to you because it has to start somewhere aye? in this web of life and nature, everything is related or connected, one way or the other. and to have hot, you need cold and thus things are never up nor never down 24/7.. nothing is as perfect as imperfection. life would be kinda boring if things are just the way it is, day in day out.. your cognitive mind cant grow and developed and thus, you get nothing in the end.
well i hope whatever i just said made some sense, cos as of know, it seems to be but perhaps my mind is clouded by events that can be compared to having balls hitting your head without you knowing.. go sleep.
smoke on the water.
1:04 AM
