Sunday, March 27, 2005
Chahat is angry with me.. again =) lol its not like im doing it on purpose..yes i know she was on pissed mode but i was just trying to make the conversation more life?? then naf came back and everything was alright...but it wasnt the same anymore.... bah and when i used the word fuck... or something like that.. she left again, for good i guess..and lol left me and hidayat chatting.. i tell you nothing i do is right anymore...
just like a few weeks ago, nurul got pissed with me because i just stood there in the lab and didnt do anything to stop fattah and haireel...urmmmm matthew was there too!! he didnt do anything too!! and he didnt get any wrath.. instead, she commented on his perky butt..im like what the f*ck..oh well, i guess Alan is right, its my face.. its screaming "IDIOT!"
hmm lol i think this is one good reason i was never looking for a gf.. wahahahaha i think i end up arguing or fighting or or to be more exact, she being pissed at me 24/7 =P
as Rooney always sang it, "Im sorry sorry for making your life a living hell"
smoke on the water.
1:30 AM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Suprisingly, i think NS will be good for me... it let me get away from all of this, the life, the pace and the people... Have you ever feel like you're the rag ? Used when needed, thrown away when not... Sometimes, i feel like that and some people may say its sad, some say its life; the real world.. Maybe, maybe not... Sooner or later, you just get numb from all of these and starts to think, life's a bitch aint it? so who cares?
the paper chasing is driving me lifeless.. all the case studies, reports, assignments, quizzes for 3 years..not to mention the mugging for O level.. I get tired when i reach home, i barely have time to even read the papers now.. Is this the way to go? I mean its my final semester in SP and i really want to enjoy it.. but everywhere, ppl around me and including me, are buried in what other would say, pile of crap.. but to think of it, its all about management and i have able to manage time and time again... hopefully i can find time for my special friends i really hoping to meet up..
the neverending problematic relationship qns still bugs me..all thanks to my friends... see pic of me with a girl, wah gf, see me smsing or calling on the hp, wah gf.. tell me to stop wasting time and money on my computer and bicycle.. lol im happy as it is... fine im already 20 and should at least start somewhere =) but but, its not as simple as it seems... honestly im stuck in the middle of the dessert with no compass or map... just my instinct and gifted talent for directions =P we shall wait and see, unlike in the show "Hitch", i dont get 3 dates and that is all... too many stuff
money issues is starting to surface..especially the spex grant owed by SKF.. HOI, I DONT GIVE A SHIT IF YOU PPL ARE BLACK BELTS....YOU OWE ME MONEY! i deserve it man, got broken, battered, bruised and bleeding body for that.. im short of money and the holiday is coming... so please?
lastly, to anyone who read this, i dont need your sympathy and no santa didnt come down my chimney, i dont have one =) what i need now is, waffles with rum and raisin on it... and her, god i keep dreaming of her for the *lost count* how many times... why!??! why?!?! im tormented... yay!
smoke on the water.
2:59 PM
