Sunday, November 26, 2006
lol.. the handphone is a good thing to keep with you everywhere you go.. why? cos you can pretend to be busy, you can pretend to be in your own little world of communication & people cant do shit about it.. ok lah most of the time anyway.. what i mean by this?? simple, walk around town or neighbourhood and then you found some people collecting donations or insurance policy or whatever lah.. things that you dont want to stop over for and waste 5-10 mins over.
but look, you're talking on the phone!! ah! they wont bother you one.. its a form of courtesy not to bother someone talking on the phone.. i think tat's the reason behind it. just walk pass them.. and you dont even need to worry about any form of eye contact? why cos you're focus on the person on the other line... ok so unfortunately, no one is calling you.. just pretend you're talking to someone on it man! works too and people dont know!!!
smses doesnt really work for this people.. so dont bother trying =P
next if you're in the train or bus or what, and you just feel people are looking at you for some odd reason.. you got no music or book or magazine or what to occupy yourself with.. the phone works! call someone, or get called, or sms, or play game or just viewing back old smses and deleting them 1 by 1.. i always do that =D haha works too!
lastly if you're in an awkward position like let say, 4 guys in a lingerie section of a shop trying to buy something for someone, just pretend you got a sms on silent and flip out your phone and pretend to sms away!! even if it means selecting sms menu, scrolling through your 120 msgs inboxes and just scroll up and down, select and back. hahahaha..
smoke on the water.
1:32 PM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
gut instinct is something all of us have.. but how it works, how you derive to that feeling, it all boils down to individual.. me? my brain usually works overtime subconsciously and play around with factors around me to come to some sort of "feeling" aka the force.. lol like for example, you planned for some gathering ah in 2 weeks time.. then things went on as per normal
as days go by, things happend, and then 3 days before the actual gathering is held, you asked again for any sort of details or plans.. you even have that "feeling" it may just not happen at all.. and tadaaa! it got cancelled for some reason or what lah.. yeah it works on me all the time.. why? i dont know ah.. but overall that dont bother me at all.. its good that i can sense disturbances in the FORCE.. at least i wont hope so much, i wont get disappointed so much..
but still, its the fact that things like this, always happen to me.. well not all the time but still i always see a pattern once more.. sometimes i feel like im used in a way or so.. "ok we need him, must get hold of him... ok we dont need him anymore, so lets move on" honestly said, i feel like a rag at times.. wanted and used when the table is messed up but just chucked away on the kitchen sink after done.. im just penning this down cos no matter how hard i said its ok/ its not bothering me.. it is man.. hmmm maybe the fact that now, things may just seem clearer to me.. and yet very opaque.
i cant never tell or find out why it happend, maybe i can ask around but then again, i be nosing around if i do.. what business do i have eh? i can suck it up and just carry on with things.. stuff like this do happen. but i mean, i dont do it to people.. if i cant go/wont go, i just say so.. i vaguely remember any last min things happening and even if it do, i usually make it up to them.. always do, always have.. =)
i keep telling myself, im just being paranoid as usual.. perhaps, maybe not, i dont know. god, i feel so lousy at times, thinking about shit like this.. hmm must be those down times i have from time to time .
smoke on the water.
12:11 AM
Friday, November 24, 2006
yay finally managed to transfer my blog account to a more better platform or something like that.. some gmail stuff..
smoke on the water.
12:25 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
go buy toto people.. please trust me! sure strike.. things happend.. hahahaha
smoke on the water.
1:38 AM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
well it happend to me once.. felicia was someone i never met before in person, ever.. met her through MIRC and then followed up by MSN and it was just that.. after like 3-4 years of chatting online, we decided to meet up in person.. haha met up and it wasnt bad at all.. the way things were going, like we knew each other for years and years.. i mean yeah, we known each other for a while but you know..
face to face conversation is always so much difference then from the online stuff.. well you know what im trying to say.. some ppl freeze when face to face ah cos cant hide behind the idling msn cursor and monitor =)
well it happend again today. she asked me if i had any plan today and i said no.. actually i told myself the day before, perhaps i should ask somebody out today.. lol things are on my side when she asked me first! haha met up and hang out for the whole day..
ok lah, we known each other since sec school but i hardly talk to her back then.. then lost touch through poly.. only manage to get back to her like recently =) and even that is through msn. so technically i known her for years.. but yeah as mentioned above, its all different face to face. haha what can i say? time past really fast.. and sadly its a sunday cos i cant really hang out till late =( got to book in man..
stay tuned....
smoke on the water.
10:12 PM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
came back from confinement period of the recruit.. nothing is worst than confinement period on a hari raya mth.. the pinch is like a punch to the face and you end up with a broken nose. serious man.. i myself was going crazy about it. so far, things hasnt been so good and yet hasnt been so bad either..
i dont know man.. i guess whether its good or bad, really depends on how i see it.. well all i can say, im seeing double vision.. and it doesnt help that im tired.. not exactly physically but more of mentally and sleeply.. why? cos i think my head went into overdrive for like at least a week? its kinda stupid bout why i like to think so much
sometimes its hard to distract yourself from things.. like hari raya weekends and you're stucked in camp.. like you may jolly well get 7 extra... like other ppl are clearing leave having fun and youre doing 5BX...i find it amazing that i can stay sane when there are alot of thigns in my mind, im trying not to worry, trying to have fun and carry on with normal life. told myself, im gonna reward myself when i booked out.. and what did i do? stayed at home, only to go imm for a short while at night..
yay! lol that just sound pathetic to me and man, it isnt really helping. i guess i was too tired to actually ask anyone to go out and i cant seem to find a good enough reason to do so.. i dont know, maybe its just a lame excuse for me to stay at home.. why? cos i cant find a good enough excuse to ask anyone to go out with me.. but then again, i cant just anyhow ask anyone.. lol there are stuff to considered like gender of party, status, time, location and of course reason behind the activity being organise..
so its not a simple thing like " hey free now? lets go man! alright!! " if life for me was that simple.. hahaha actually i can make it simple such as that, or at least try too, but neh, i doubt it will ever work.. ppl can tend to be too judgemental on certain things.. but just in case, perhaps i should try it tomorrow?? hmmmmmmm and next week.. hahaha
smoke on the water.
11:04 PM
