Thursday, September 30, 2004
ok it seems to me, as days gone by...there are more and more crap in Strait Times nowdays...first there was the " Egyptian cleric declares Yoga unislamic" WTF!! no offence but why in the hell is yoga considered as promoting hinduism?? its just a form of exercise man...next thing we know kung fu promotes buddhism and exericising is the way of the devil?? why are thet focusing on stuff that do not need the attention?? they should do something about the terrorist shit and forget about this yoga crap man.. totally wrong mindset!!!
next is soya sauce...nations can actually fight over the labelling of soya sauce.DOT DOT DOT..come mon, its just a sauce, people wont die without it..nor will it change the future of mankind, making the world a better place if the new regulation is passed...joked!..next thing we know, we see 2 nations nuking each other because of some chilli sauce?? hopefully not man..
ah yes the most crappiest...today's paper...a guy by the name of Jack Straw shake hand with some dude and wah! wah! wah!!! cannot!!! its wrong and all this shit..for god sake! its just a bloody hand shake!! dont mean you shake hand with adolf hitler, you support his ideas...dont mean you shake hand with an idiot, you are an idiot...he can shake hand with the gay next door for all we care man.. bah! GOd must have love crazy ppl..cos GOd made soo many of them...
smoke on the water.
12:02 AM
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
yesterday me and syahmi had a chat about his insecurities about being single and stuff...so what i did was i asked around, asking for views...views about having a relatioship now...i was only able to ask 1 person and that was phyllis...her views were pretty much what i expected from someone like her, a girl especially... that is, take your time in getting into a relatioship, dont rush...you are still young and well find the real one and make it last...not some flings or some sort... so basically its like, you live your life the way you are now, single till you really find the right one..it maybe in a week time, a month, a year or 4 years for all we know eh? this way, the relationship you get yourself into should be meaningful..and not some shallow crap shit..
then suddenly today, i found out..the SP girl who felled from 4 storeys at T15 died...she was only 19...and this got me thinking again...god she is only 19 and her life is no longer there...for all we know, she barely manage to experience what life has to offer...she may had died a single...never been in a relationship, not even once..and now she is somewhere...what i learnt from it? that we must really live our lifes like there is no tomorrow....we must taste every single thing life has got to offer...am i right? is it logical for us to do so?
now this comes down to having a relationship...do anyone of us wanna die single and insecure? knowing that you didnt had the chance to really give all you got to that special someone?? or at least had a fling with the girl/guy next door for just a few days? yes maybe im bringing up a stupid point? but its not really a point..im just trying to figure it out...i have friends who always ask me...firdaus why dont you get a girl? of course my answer is simple, Im lazy to do so...of course there are other factors that i didnt brought up to them...like is she the the girl i really one? is it really necessary for me? what if it dont work out? what if i get hurt? etc etc yes we have to agree on 1 thing...
in a relationship, like it or not, it may or may not work..its a risk we all should take...a 50/50 gamble...a risk where you can either feel blissful or dreadful... but there was a saying..do not cry because the relatioship is over but smile because it happend...i believe that is a good saying...which is worst? feeling sad your gf/bf dumped you cos you 2 just couldnt connect or because you didnt bothered to try and well you lost your chance to try it..FOREVER.. lol has to be the latter right? of course im not trying to urge all those single to rush into a relationship like tomorrow is gonna be the end of the world..im just trying to say..dont miss out on anything that isnt worth missing out...
see a girl you like? hell go over and maybe compliment her or something... or you see that guy, just smile at him? it need not lead to a relationship...it doesnt have too i guess..im not in a relationship..and its not like im trying to be in one...i guess im letting things unfold by themselves..but still it dont mean we cant enjoy the moment....i flirt with some special girls...yeah i do and i guess its all worth it...at least if anything happend *choy* i can tell to myself " hey, at least i tried man...ok so what it wasnt meant for us to be ...i still try and it was great "
i guess to each their own...this is my view...its not about encouraging to get bf/gf or what ah...there are hidden meanings in it...
Ms Lorraine Ong Siu Yann, I may not know you...but i will dedicate this blog to you...hopefully, you live a wonderful 19 years..and that all the memories left behind for your loved ones are treasured for all time...may your soul rest and god have mercy on you =)
try not to shed the tears because they are gone but instead smile on the memories and time they left for you to cherish ...... Firdaus Ishak
smoke on the water.
12:47 AM
Monday, September 20, 2004
technically im fighting sleepiness right now... me, muhd nur firdaus bin mohd ishak is really tired..god what did i do man?? i didnt go to the gym, didnt go cycling, didnt go karate training..i just did school work and stuff..and im this tired..bah, i hate this man.. or maybe for the fact its already 11.40 pm now =) bah syahmi ask me to sleep..to make it worst, no one is replying my msg in msn..must be pretty busy eh? im like 80% done with my corrosion report but still, bah i wanna do more work..
wahahahahaha, gonna drown myself in apple juice..........*hick*
smoke on the water.
11:38 PM
The Feeling
I dont know what to say
I dont how to explain
This feeling inside me
A warm and fuzzy me
Its timing is always predictable
Like the sun sets and the moon rise
Everytime I see her
It hits me hard
Harder than the smell of my friend's fart
In a way its subtle and yet so strong
Like a spanish guitar playing a song
Her smile is so warm
Her face so perfect
Yet there is more to her than just all that
Desperately at times i try to forget
But how can I?
God knows why Im like this now
Maybe because Im 19
Or Im just like this
I cant deny this feeling
This weird uncertain creep
My heart wants to follow it
But my head wants to ditch it
Bah! Im confuse, lost and uncertain
What am I to do?
It like those coffee stains on your shirt
Not really there but outlines can be seen
Why is it always me?
Why must I be tormented by such such things
There is soo much stuff I want to do
But it seems so wrong to say it to you
Im happy that I known you
And for that I thank you
I guess this is my blessing and my undoing
But by God, I wont quit
Have my words, It wont be an easy feat
By yours trully, Firdaus...
this isnt really a poem but it could be if you want it to be.. i just typed this out because its just me to do this kind of things..no suprise eh? yeah Firdaus Firdaus...what is happening to you? lol i dont know man, i really dont know..at least i pen it down and its not kept inside me till i die...i would die a sad man if that is the case.. *choy* maybe its time for me to sleep =) sleeping soundly hahahaha yeah i really need to sleep...so tired, so tired zzzzzzzzz
good night to all reading this..you can shoot me with questions if you see me online or in person..adios amigos!
smoke on the water.
2:29 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
today had the gathering..hahaha 4 hours at JP talking nothing but cock and crap..LOL it was nice...able to see *not in order of merit* chahat, grace, nuraini, chweng, kok liang, gary, joe, edwin, syahmi, CK ... haahaha i enjoyed the time spent...haha but today didnt do any school work loh!! hmmm i better choose what i want to write here properly...some ppl read my blog and if its too personaly, hahaha they start to shoot me with questions again..
though i need to pen it down but still, argh!! i got made fun of, plenty of times...so many times i lost count...bah... ok nvm let see, chahat wore some punk chick stuff, grace wore her usual school attires, nuraini wore all pink, chweng and the rest, all slack wear..bah i wanted to do the same, but dad always nag me for not dressing up appropriately..even if its meeting a bunch of friends!!
lol even weirder is like, the NS guys were one side, the rest that is, all the girls including me and sometimes chweng one side...so its like the conversation is like 2 group lol...i had to like listen in to the girls gossiping about guys and girls and bf and gf..muahahahaha *what is new eh?* the guys? lol talked about sex and stuff !! haha no suprised there too! as for me? i had to put up with jokes and making fun of me thing!! ok lah not all the times =P not that im complaining.. hmmm god i need to pen something down before i sleep...but grace would be reading this, and phyllis too!! wahahaha
p.s: She likes me!!!
smoke on the water.
1:10 AM
Friday, September 17, 2004
sighed, i recently read one of my friend's blog out of curiousity...she talked about being alone etc etc...and lol now i feel alone...hahaha..just one of those days where i just feel down just because the rest of your friends are doing something and you are not..yes the feeling trully suck and i feel that i need to go out..but do what? and with who? you know me, i dont like to go out and just do nothing man...its like wahaha waste of money..
furthermore today got training but whether i wanna go or not, that is another story altogether. bah i wanna get the money karate supposedly owe me...but its like im not getting it...why?? ok lah its not like im in dire need of money, but 600 bucks or so would do me good right? not like im that stingy..i said already if i have it, im gonna treat my stone table kids and my family to some nice feast..it is only appropriate to do so..i can immediately get a new PSU and heatsink for my pc...sighed
oh yes back to being lonely, i guess now i know why some ppl seek gfs and bfs...cos lol they are lonely..i dont know how true is that, or how will it really work, cos i am still not utterly convince getting attached will actually help you in any emotional way possible..its all in the mindset of ppl i think...yes i do feel left out and all this crap but come mon man, its all because you people cant stop pressurizing me into thinking bout so.. "why are you still single" "come i hook you up to some girls" " eh you better get a girl before NS" etc etc.. lol i laughed and i will laughed again at this..im trying not to think about it soo much and you people are not helping me..nvm, im strong..i will hold hopefully.. its just a matter of time before i crack
and go totally insane, and eat my veggie and forgo junk food..love, lust or just curious? these 3 factors are gonna determine my future with regards to relationship...im being realistic here, as far as i know, if i want it, it be with a few girls cos i cant decide between them..LOL (ps: this is the first post that has the correct time and date on it hehe =P )
smoke on the water.
7:45 AM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
hey hey hey, had my chalet yesterday baby! lol it was OK..played guitar till i cut my fingers and it got like damn pain!! but after like 12 am, it got really boring cos we had nothing to do man...literally..the rest of the non stone table kids were inside, watching tv, or mahjong or hanky panky with gf/bf ah...argh,! so instead me, fattah, haireel and alan went riding to pasir ris beach hahaha..somwhere to fishermen's village there..LOL, now that was niceee...its like a relaxing walk walk walk at 2 am in the morning...hahaha.. i really trully enjoyed myself though we just spend the time, seating down at the beach and talking crap * as usual*
but it felt meaningful, i mean its better than talking cock back at the chalet..cockroaches and mosquitoes and all..the beach was peaceful..and after that, we had back to the chalet, grabbed our stuff and cabut home!! hahaha cos it was too boring and my friend had driving like at 7 am later..unfortunately, my mum locked the door from the inside and thus i couldnt enter..haha i go 7/11 to get coffee..haha nice feeling of being the only one walking around..and called home at 4.15..mum picked it up and unlocked for me =) wohoo, slept at 5 am only to wake up at 8.30 am..ahaha cant sleep :)
smoke on the water.
6:41 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
lol yesterday the girl who i considered " the bomb" actually like talked to my 2 smoker friends..why? cos she is also a smoker..hahahaha , darn it i should have start smoking way back man!!! hahahaha but then again, =P i cant start smoking cos of 1 girl or 2 or 3 or 4!!! never!!
she is hot stuff ppl, sophisticated and all, definetely out of my league and that is why i considered her a bomb!! baby!! chances of me with her is practically zero 0 numero zero =) lol i managed to track her down on friendster :) name is silver but doubt that is her real name ah...dragon boat lady~~ used to have this arnold schwardzenegger bf look alike, damn tall, damn big, damn built..hehehe then a normal guy ah..and now both guys graduated already and she is single..,MUAHAHAHAHA the plot thickens, but im not gonna do anything about it...
a girl like her is best left untouch ;) hehehe besides i dont really need a girl in my life right now, though im 19 and all..and as i mentioned earlier, she is way out of my league..i got other targets man, targets that is hard to get too!
smoke on the water.
10:38 PM
