Tuesday, October 14, 2008
its been a while since i last update this blog..been too busy doing everything else.. i should be more focus but it seems no matter how hard i try to focus, nothing seem to be working..its like im a dslr camera with a broken lense and no matter how much the camera operator tries to rotate that telescopic lense, the picture always end up blur.
it can be seen on everyday things..at times i always leave stuff in my locker when i work my way to office or vice versa.. my typos on the keyboard at times are horrendous! and no i dont really get typo =) and im always tired at night, after 8 pm onwards, just tired man.. physically drained and mentally exhausted. i presume its the post raya syndrome where there is just too much of allege celebration.. i hope so..
or is it due to the recent spat of issues with regards to r/s? i think that played a part too..since the issues are much closer to heart & me, maybe that has been taxing on me.. dont get me wrong, things like these are normal and happen to anyone and everyone.. but the combination of work, raya and what not, really takes the cake i guess.. i have yet to fully practice for my jamming session this sat and argh! im really hoping things work out. =)
in the quest to satisfy everybody else, i realize i forgot to look into myself and of course, to fulfill my basic needs of satisfaction.. i dont need much to be satisfied though but its the whole "i cant let others down just cos i want something i want" mentality.. maybe that is why im indecisive in things at times.. i rather run away from that responsibility than rather to face it and take it that, no im sorry i cant fulfill what you require cos i want to do what i want to do.
though that doesnt mean i should be selfish. =)
smoke on the water.
6:32 AM
