Thursday, September 06, 2007
lately i have been coming home late from school.. ok its not lately but everyday since like after the first week? hahaha oh well, cant help it ah, cant really get much work done at home because firstly you got no one to ask and there are of course distraction..
everytime i reach home, i feel tired and yeah its normal i guess.. just the other day, i spent 2 hour plus just doing applied chem tutorial and getting stuck at 2 qns for the better part of it!! when i reach home, i felt like i just undergo a mensa examination that tested my mind again a supercomputer and if i failed, they gonna suck my brain juice into tablets supplements!
terminator said im kinda emotional and stuff..i beg to differ lah, its just me being mentally exhausted so early into the academic term.. its whole different ball game in uni and 2 years of NS time where i didnt even touch a book didnt really help..
its bad enough your rally car cant go at its 100% cos the engine need tuning but, you're driving without much navigation except for the sign boards you see along the way.. and that is assuming there are sign boards!
dont worry terminator, im not emo or what, im still me.. just very deep in thoughts more often now.. why? i think cos the study stress being induced sets my mind going on and on.. funny though, it felt refreshing in a sense, no more booking in, no more on duty, no more being in a framed system where you cant just do whatever you like.
now its more freedom and yes, i can finally sleep in my own room, in my own bed everynight.. something that was a ultra luxury back when i was in NS. of course, funny enough too, i kinda miss the good ol days of wearing green and doing things you didnt knew you were capable of and of course, having the least care in the world about grades and test.. but alast, that is history, grades and quizzes is the reality now.. im still trying to adjust, its slow but what to do eh.. im only human.
smoke on the water.
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