Sunday, July 22, 2007
2 years ago, around this time.. i had long hair, i had my pink ic, i had a social life outside.. about a mth and a week later after that day, i had no hair, my ic is green and in a way, my allege social life got taken away from me per se. yes its nearly been 2 years since i first got enlisted into the army..
started my journey as a recruit for 3 mths, graduated as a private for a week where i proceed to OCS to be a OCT for a good ol 9 mths before being commissioned as an officer where i would actually spent the rest of my NS liability as an officer of the SAF. 2 years isnt actually a long time, but it isnt a short time either. and like it or not, wearing that uniform calls for you to make certain sacrifices from time to time with regards to everything you hold. inclusive of whatever social life you have, let it be family, friends, gf etc.
the sacrifices is even more certain and the "time to time" is even more frequent especially if you're a commander and especially if you're an officer.. i know, i would have known cos i just went through that for nearly a year already. always ready on the moment notice, whether or not if you're on OFF, at home, sleeping and watching the tele..
however. i come to realise how much i have "adapt" myself to army and all..i come to realize how much have i lost touch with what i call the civilian world, the outside world.. a world outside of camp, away from the concertina wire and metal fences, away from the xray machine and metal detectors.
lost touch not in a sense i get soo outdated with what is going on but things like, having time to watch the tv, reading the papers, going to the beach, hanging out with people outside without actually bother about what is going to happen once you book in again etc things like that.. i went to sentosa last week.. it felt great and refreshing.. yet it felt oddly weird. i guess in a way, i got desensitize to the things civilians usually feel day to day in their normal day.
then i booked in again after a deserving break from work.. army again for a few days till weekend came.. then i just notice how lost/mix-match about how things are.. i use to think going to town for the night was a bane cos i always always tired from school and the people.. then army made me changed that, i felt refresh whenever i was there with the people.. then now, i dont feel much of anything.. its like a transition period.. yeah that's what it is, a transition.. hopefully it will go pass quick.. i cant really afford to be in this daze state for long..
too much things need doing without much break for me to prepare myself.. typical firdaus's life.. hahaha, ah man..
anyway tomorrow is my wisdom tooth surgery, argh.. all 4 will be gone..
if you notice, my left bottom tooth is practically horizontal, and my right one is upright but towards the back.. doc said the right one is harder to take out.. and if you notice small thin white lines beneath these tooth, its my nerve to my lower jaw and lips.. he said there is a minimum 15% risk total, of damaging it when the teeth are being extract.. meaning, i wont be able to feel much of my lips if its damaged.. and if that happen and if it last for more than 6 mths.. more or less, its permanent.. heh.
ok, good news is, i be put on GA, general anaesthetic.. zzzzz its been a while since i got under the knife.. argh! i hate that.
smoke on the water.
9:37 PM
