Saturday, November 04, 2006
came back from confinement period of the recruit.. nothing is worst than confinement period on a hari raya mth.. the pinch is like a punch to the face and you end up with a broken nose. serious man.. i myself was going crazy about it. so far, things hasnt been so good and yet hasnt been so bad either..
i dont know man.. i guess whether its good or bad, really depends on how i see it.. well all i can say, im seeing double vision.. and it doesnt help that im tired.. not exactly physically but more of mentally and sleeply.. why? cos i think my head went into overdrive for like at least a week? its kinda stupid bout why i like to think so much
sometimes its hard to distract yourself from things.. like hari raya weekends and you're stucked in camp.. like you may jolly well get 7 extra... like other ppl are clearing leave having fun and youre doing 5BX...i find it amazing that i can stay sane when there are alot of thigns in my mind, im trying not to worry, trying to have fun and carry on with normal life. told myself, im gonna reward myself when i booked out.. and what did i do? stayed at home, only to go imm for a short while at night..
yay! lol that just sound pathetic to me and man, it isnt really helping. i guess i was too tired to actually ask anyone to go out and i cant seem to find a good enough reason to do so.. i dont know, maybe its just a lame excuse for me to stay at home.. why? cos i cant find a good enough excuse to ask anyone to go out with me.. but then again, i cant just anyhow ask anyone.. lol there are stuff to considered like gender of party, status, time, location and of course reason behind the activity being organise..
so its not a simple thing like " hey free now? lets go man! alright!! " if life for me was that simple.. hahaha actually i can make it simple such as that, or at least try too, but neh, i doubt it will ever work.. ppl can tend to be too judgemental on certain things.. but just in case, perhaps i should try it tomorrow?? hmmmmmmm and next week.. hahaha
smoke on the water.
11:04 PM
