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Saturday, September 30, 2006

ok lets see.. i need to set my goal straight and give top priority to something in my life already.. im already 21 going 22 man.. im not growing any younger by the day.. so yeah, i got to make a decision and start planning!!!

no its not about me getting a gf! rofl, for that to happen, i got to let things just unfold and play the waiting game..that's more like fishing for that elusive fish in that elusive fishing spot..noooo this prioritizing requires planning and utter dedication.. so here i go

firstly! new set of road wheels for my hardtail mountainbike! yes as much as this may sound lame, i always wanted to get a pair of 1-1.5inch road wheeels for my bike for a veryyyyyy longggggggggggggggg time already man.. ya lah i know i spent so much on my bike already that i should move on and get a life?? but cycling is my life.. though, i wont have much time using the bike just as yet cos by the time i book out from camp, i just feel shag to burn the road with my bike! i think the wheels gonna cost me 300-400 sing dollars.. a pair of rims, a pair of tubes, a pair of tyres, a new casette and wanna get a new chain too! hmmmmm

secondly! a bass guitar set inclusive of an amp.. yes! finally, a bassist who has a bass guitar.. yeah i know, i can play my bass on my acoustic but like it or not, the feeling is different somewhat.. bass guitar is heavier, broader fret boards, longer and the string spacing is different! i can learn how to pluck with my pick or finger and of course, it gives a real bass sound! and im trying not to settle for those cheap ones.. trying to go for something slightly better so that, in the long run, it be better for me ah =) besides i heard bass guitars can increase in resale values over the years due to its nature.. of course im gonna totally look into 2nd hand guitars.. as for amps, maybe first hand also can ah.. but best also 2nd hand. best deals are always there.. and once i get that, total dedication to using it ah.. practice and practice and practice! hmmm also not much time allowed.. except on weekends for a few hours.. i say, 300-400 sing dollars too. hmmmmm

thirdly! a motorbike license! yes for somebody who lovesssssss cycling, i must get a license for a bike ah.. why? can go faster! hahaha and yeah, personal transport in which i can also bring another person around is sooooooooo cool! no need to worries about late nights, or meeting at weird far far away places.. can vroom vroom! yeah ppl say its dangerous, but i believe 100000% i can make it 1000% accident free for me =) its about what, 300 sing dollars.. but then now here the deal.. even with license, its no use without a bike itself.. class 2B, can get a honda sp, kawasaki kr, anything below 200cc.. i think the gilera suits me the most but lets not dive into there first.. need to see, money input.. bike itself, preferably 2nd hand.. 2-3K?? then petrol, insurance, parking, COE, maintenance as per say.. lol i dont know man..
need to ask my biker buddy about this.. but its an even heavier financial investment.. can use the bike for 10 years.. go school, work with it, take my gf ;) around, my friends.. go riding riding.. hahaha hmmmmmmm

yup that is my 3 main priority.. wahahaha so how?

smoke on the water.
~~5:04 AM~~

Saturday, September 23, 2006

my lungs are filled
with bitter gas that choke
cigarettes lit up
burnt through my skin
skin tainted with arts
made from ink of blood unvirtue

chosen because they showed no mercy
rebel with no cause
bad with no conscience
im left here unwanted
i chose to be different
from these hordes

its my way of living
my bread and butter
people always say i wont lose in the game
people follow rules, they obey the law
but the game; there is no rule
no law to say who win or lose

in the race to finish first
i always ran out of gas
but i dont seek sympathy
nor empathy from the stand
im just merely trying
to seek answers to questions
why do we race, why do i lose

when i train as hard, if not harder
when i can go fast, if not faster
they say my legs will take me far and fast
but all that effort, all that spirit
isi t enough to go against the wind

smoke on the water.
~~6:17 PM~~

Sunday, September 17, 2006

just had my commissioning ball yesterday.. my date was Ms CJ..she was all dressed up.. in a nice sexy black dress with a red cardigan, a pair of red high heels and nice red lipstick to compliment everything.. hahaha as you sui and chahat said, it complimented my sash and bow tie which was red too =P

anyway moving on, yeah, everything went quite good i guess.. it wasnt as stiff as my social night i had with chahat also at sentosa like a few mths back =) chahat clicked with my buddies and their date.. haha i clicked with their dates.. i could see chahat enjoyed her time there.. which is good, cos i believe, its important for your date to feel nice and all ah..

we laughed, we talked then it was over.. she had to leave, meet the bf and go home and stuff.. lol in the end, she couldnt wait for the bf and just left.. oh well, she left me a sms.. there is just something about it, well that really put everything we just had during the dinner, all the talks, process of getting her to be my date, process of fetching her as my date ;P, the dinner itself and what not; all into a nice box and the sms is like a nice cute ribbon that is tied around the box..

it made my day, my commissioning ball complete.. lol ok lah almost complete.. well i was hoping to hang out with my date longer but oh well, curfew and all =)and yeah i guess it wont be too nice to actually hang around with someone's gf.. =P haha.. ok maybe the reason it felt like that maybe perhaps there is some hidden meaning in the msg, i dont know, i will never know.. maybe 1 day i will know but i dont want to speculate anything..

but thanks ah babe! the yellow song is for you =)

smoke on the water.
~~7:27 PM~~

Saturday, September 16, 2006

its funny aint it. most girls out there think they are fat and wants to be skinny.. most guys out there think they are skinny and wants to be big.. of course key word here is most but i think if we assumed and placed everybody on this planet to be of a healthy weight range and BMI.. i still believe they are still fat or skinny.. haha

only human to strive for what we all call perfection... there is a saying that goes like " dont be afraid of perfection cos you will never reach it " i guess perfection in a sense that its not just by merely drawing a perfect square or circle.. well some may think its possible, but think about it, can you actually do it? right down to the last few micrometers?? maybe maybe not.. there is so much that science, technology and human can achieve at 1 time..

but perfection in a bigger picture.. people go through a lot to achieve it.. whatever sort of perfection they are trying to achieve it ah, effort and lots of it has been put through it.. i personally had spent nearly 2 years doing weight's training and all, trying to put on lean mass onto my frame of mine. of course i managed to get like 11kg which i think is good but of course, its never good enough..

there is still imperfection..but i dont know.. imperfection is like a form of perfection if you think about it hard enough.. imperfectly perfect. lol hard to comprehend ah.. must sit down, stone and think about it.

smoke on the water.
~~1:07 PM~~

Maroon 5 - She will be loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

smoke on the water.
~~12:16 AM~~

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

yesterday, i had to report back to OCS for a commander OCS farewell speech and taking of the officer creed in the ceremonial hall of SAFTI MI. after that, commander left and our SSM had a small farewell speech with us as well.. to be honest, as compared to the ACPC, to the actual commissioning parade and what not, the part where SSM talked to us was what i felt to be the most heart tugging..

its funny aint it? the cadets, i didnt exactly see the SSM much except for the last 2 weeks of our 38 weeks stay in OCS.. and that is a whole day of parade drills and rehearsals.. 2 weeks if you think about it as compared to 38 weeks in total is kinda short ah =) maybe its his way of teaching and how he interacts with the guys.. funny thing is, before i knew him, everybody was practically scared of him, but when we do see him in person and all..

lol its all ok.. yeah, we do get push ups, get to run around the parade square, get to hentak kaki till there are rust stains on the floor.. but its all fun! can you imagine that! the way he scold us, his jokes and all.. hahahaha are just damn funny ah!

anyway back to the farewell speech, yeah he gave us a short saying and i was like, man im soo gonna miss him.. then he like "congratulations!" then he saluted all of us.. can you imagine that? a Master warrant officer saluting a group of young 2nd lt.. man, that really touched me.. i dont know why.. i guess cos i could really feel the sincerity in it? you know? certain things can be felt one by oneself and that is just one of that certain things..

then once he salutes, we all saluted, cut down and all, he walked out of the ceremonial hall, everybody clap that CLAP.. its that clap that really comes from the heart and goes to the heart =) man, i think that feeling, was the best feeling throughout my journey of commissioning from the parade till then =) weird aint it?

well my heartful and sincere thanks to SSM MWo Benedict Goh! i personally felt that the actual parade could be better but none the less, rest assured i didnt give any less than 100% effort during all of the rehearsals =D

smoke on the water.
~~4:54 PM~~

Sunday, September 10, 2006

ok, today is 10 of september 2006. I have officially commissioned as a 2nd lieutenant =) the thought is still sinking in i tell you.. it like BAM WHAM!!! im an officer now.. just like that, and yet, i had to like go through BMT for 3 mths, OCS for 9 mths, and that is like 1 year in army man.. which is kinda a long time ah if you think about it.. can you imagine how much you can cover in terms of 1 academic year in school??

i practically eat, sleep, breathe army stuff for that 1 year and now here i am.. ashiq gave me that " wow and suddenly we're officers look " haha that @-@ look.. well, i have now to embrace this officership whether i like it or not and make do and do my best out of the situation..

i already got blessed by not 1, 2 or 3 but 9 highly religious people from 9 different religion.. cant be that bad eh =)

MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME AND THE REST OF THE NEWLY COMMISSIONED OFFICERS!

smoke on the water.
~~10:42 PM~~

Sunday, September 03, 2006

wake me up when september ends..summer has come to pass, the innocent cant never last,

wake me up when september ends...

Graduating Class of 62/05 Officer Cadet Course Charlie/Hotel Wing
Congrats!

Commissioning Sept 9 2006

smoke on the water.
~~8:27 PM~~