Thursday, April 21, 2005
"not bad", "baik (good) " are just a few of the compliments one can get if you train hard enough at the gym...and i can safely say, its paying off... however as much as it is, im not satisfied...something is still missing and im gonna go all out even harder now...i dont know why but it just gets to me if im not good enough...and i was never good enough.. never ever enough.. frustrating as it may sound, i do try to put that negative energy to good use..
hmmmm, im trying to achieve something soo high up, its just too high up.. sooner or later i will reach my limit and what will happen then? do i crash back down? do i just stop and hang? i dont know...i dont want to know... all i want to know is to push myself, more and more and more....until satisfaction guaranteed but i dont have much hope for that to happen...its just how i exist in this world..
and this brings us back to never being good enough... that is how i am, that is how i will be..
smoke on the water.
2:37 PM
