Saturday, January 29, 2005
Its all like a game now...Im the toy being played around.. the ball being kicked around.. why me? its never easy to control oneself.. especially now that im 20 and still going strong.. going to graduate soon, going NS soon.. my annual dinner and dance is tomorrow..
i guess, what i said before is true...the first few flames are always hardest to extinguish..maybe its like a template formation... after it, a template is inprinted in my head, and well you cant remove that can you? no you cant, everything in life is base on something... a template we used or follow as a guide..
maybe i should just stop dreaming and just quit it.. cut my loses and lose the war... i just hate it when i cant get the things i want... i cant really accept those kind of failures.. never. i guess i just need to suck it up like a man and take it like a man..part and parcel of growing up. things will change, for the better and worst.. hopefully the former.. it can be annoying at times when life just dont feel like going your way.. when others can. maybe its due to all my sins..why am i forsaken? or am i ? deep stuff man, really deep stuff..
this romeo's bleeding, you cant see his blood....
smoke on the water.
12:32 AM