Sunday, December 12, 2004
Ok, lets talk about me and my over-reacting... some ppl, no most ppl do seem to see that i tend to over-react to certain things.. as much as im laid back, cool and calm most of the time i have to admit, i do over-react during certain situations..
why is that? hmmmmm i believe its my mindset and way of thinking and reasoning... and the fact that i tend to over do it on the thinking and reasoning part =)lets give an example for my way of thinking and reasoning.. I wanna buy a 120mm DC fan.. oh simple aint it? ah but nooo it isnt..i dont buy on impulse so i use factors like looks, price, brand to reach into a buying solution..of course there are also other models of fans to look into.. so you may say, i found the right fan but the price isnt right..but that price is right but its not the right fan..should i compromise?? and since there are other shops, you go around looking around even more, and find even more fans and even more prices.. in the end what happend? you end up with soo much possibilities that it just make my head hurts..i mean its only natural for me to see all possibible possibilities i can choose right?
that is how my mind works.. now apply it to my over reacting... let say, i send a wrong sms to a girl A and the msg may contain something that maybe insulting to her.. she doesnt reply.. ah first thing that goes in my mind? she is angry with me that why never reply back.. maybe she isnt, that why never reply, maybe she hate me in the first place and choose to ignore me..etc etc hell i can come up with alot possibilities... then being the NICE AND SWEET guy that i am... after the sms incident, im sure to sms her with an apology.. irregardless of what i think..ah after that, what if she didnt reply? she really hates me? still angry wont forgive me? she accepts my apology but see no reason to reply? that is when i call to apologize.. ah but what if, she didnt pick it up or she did but with an annoyed tone??
LOL its all with the " what if " if if if, 3/4 of the crap i just mentioned above may not even happen in 50 years time..to me, how i decide on something is dependent on what the outcome maybe.. i analyze every single thing closely and see.. i like to look at every single details, down to the tone of voice, languaged, eye contact and words.. hehehe yes im nuts im weird..but hey im alive and well and that is the most impt thing =P
smoke on the water.
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