Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Currently im learing EIC, Effective Interpersonal Communication in school and well its basically about emotions..something that scientist explain using chemicals and hormones being produced in the body and reacting...as much as i hate to say this, i believed its more than that..what is that which makes you feel sooo like that.. i thought i was in control...hahaha i have no idea whether i am in control with my emotions..
its not basic 1+1=2 .. its more of interpreting what and how you feel and find a reasonable explanation for it..its like deciphering complex number sequence where logics are just rules..like now, i dont know how to actually describe my feelings...the fact that i know the feeling is there but not knowing what it really means is killing me man.. argh im torturing myself with this..but why? cant i find a button where i just switch it on and off as and when i like? doubt so =)
well i guess i shouldnt think about it, just get a GRIP OF MYSELF MAN.. *slaps self* i need to get distracted with stuff...though doubt it will work.. hahaha i wish i can read ppl's mind and stuff..it definetely makes my life easier.. how i should act or react is dependant on how others will react ..i guess this is where god comes into play.. well maybe we all should just do what we think is best and let the outcome just role out..though i myself dont know what is best.. for me, for them..bah it was never simple
smoke on the water.
10:47 PM
