Saturday, October 23, 2004
its around 4.15 am now...just ate chicken rice..mom ask me whether i wanted to eat my bro's left over...the garbage man but not tonight urmm tomorning i guess..hahaha..if i eat too much, i cant sleep...just now, grace was like " firdaus are you ok? if you need to talk, im here... " hahahaha..all because she read my blog about me reaching 20 soon..hmmm has Firdaus man been acting all weird ?
ok lately, there just have been alot of stuff in my head and well i blog so that i can just let go...i tell you honestly, its harder for me to focus when it comes to studying..i guess the fact that, i wanna slack! is really killing me!! cant help it... Prelim, Os, 3mths jc, work for 1 mth and poly life ... the gaps for breaks and holiday are pretty much vague man...its taking a toll on me...physically and mentally! especially mentally..either that or im just exaggerating everything that is happening now because im fasting..bah! i guess its both..i cant be really lying to myself about this can i? i mean going insane for me is possible with the things happening around me...
lol, this is life man...*my pc making funny noises again* which brings me to my next thing though i cant really relate it together... its about not quitting and about moving on with life..its a really thin line im walking here..seriously? i have no idea which zone i am in...as much as i wanna move on, i dont want to quit! i mean quitting isnt my cup of tea.must be persistent they say...but then again, i mustnt sound like a guy who need help..im only 19 they say, still a long way ahead...dont boggle yourself down with it... ----------> either way, easier said then done..god why is this happening..its like a repeating cycle i cant stop...there must be a reason for this...there must be cos its driving me nuts at times!!
smoke on the water.
7:29 AM
