Wednesday, September 29, 2004
yesterday me and syahmi had a chat about his insecurities about being single and stuff...so what i did was i asked around, asking for views...views about having a relatioship now...i was only able to ask 1 person and that was phyllis...her views were pretty much what i expected from someone like her, a girl especially... that is, take your time in getting into a relatioship, dont rush...you are still young and well find the real one and make it last...not some flings or some sort... so basically its like, you live your life the way you are now, single till you really find the right one..it maybe in a week time, a month, a year or 4 years for all we know eh? this way, the relationship you get yourself into should be meaningful..and not some shallow crap shit..
then suddenly today, i found out..the SP girl who felled from 4 storeys at T15 died...she was only 19...and this got me thinking again...god she is only 19 and her life is no longer there...for all we know, she barely manage to experience what life has to offer...she may had died a single...never been in a relationship, not even once..and now she is somewhere...what i learnt from it? that we must really live our lifes like there is no tomorrow....we must taste every single thing life has got to offer...am i right? is it logical for us to do so?
now this comes down to having a relationship...do anyone of us wanna die single and insecure? knowing that you didnt had the chance to really give all you got to that special someone?? or at least had a fling with the girl/guy next door for just a few days? yes maybe im bringing up a stupid point? but its not really a point..im just trying to figure it out...i have friends who always ask me...firdaus why dont you get a girl? of course my answer is simple, Im lazy to do so...of course there are other factors that i didnt brought up to them...like is she the the girl i really one? is it really necessary for me? what if it dont work out? what if i get hurt? etc etc yes we have to agree on 1 thing...
in a relationship, like it or not, it may or may not work..its a risk we all should take...a 50/50 gamble...a risk where you can either feel blissful or dreadful... but there was a saying..do not cry because the relatioship is over but smile because it happend...i believe that is a good saying...which is worst? feeling sad your gf/bf dumped you cos you 2 just couldnt connect or because you didnt bothered to try and well you lost your chance to try it..FOREVER.. lol has to be the latter right? of course im not trying to urge all those single to rush into a relationship like tomorrow is gonna be the end of the world..im just trying to say..dont miss out on anything that isnt worth missing out...
see a girl you like? hell go over and maybe compliment her or something... or you see that guy, just smile at him? it need not lead to a relationship...it doesnt have too i guess..im not in a relationship..and its not like im trying to be in one...i guess im letting things unfold by themselves..but still it dont mean we cant enjoy the moment....i flirt with some special girls...yeah i do and i guess its all worth it...at least if anything happend *choy* i can tell to myself " hey, at least i tried man...ok so what it wasnt meant for us to be ...i still try and it was great "
i guess to each their own...this is my view...its not about encouraging to get bf/gf or what ah...there are hidden meanings in it...
Ms Lorraine Ong Siu Yann, I may not know you...but i will dedicate this blog to you...hopefully, you live a wonderful 19 years..and that all the memories left behind for your loved ones are treasured for all time...may your soul rest and god have mercy on you =)
try not to shed the tears because they are gone but instead smile on the memories and time they left for you to cherish ...... Firdaus Ishak
smoke on the water.
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