Friday, September 17, 2004
sighed, i recently read one of my friend's blog out of curiousity...she talked about being alone etc etc...and lol now i feel alone...hahaha..just one of those days where i just feel down just because the rest of your friends are doing something and you are not..yes the feeling trully suck and i feel that i need to go out..but do what? and with who? you know me, i dont like to go out and just do nothing man...its like wahaha waste of money..
furthermore today got training but whether i wanna go or not, that is another story altogether. bah i wanna get the money karate supposedly owe me...but its like im not getting it...why?? ok lah its not like im in dire need of money, but 600 bucks or so would do me good right? not like im that stingy..i said already if i have it, im gonna treat my stone table kids and my family to some nice feast..it is only appropriate to do so..i can immediately get a new PSU and heatsink for my pc...sighed
oh yes back to being lonely, i guess now i know why some ppl seek gfs and bfs...cos lol they are lonely..i dont know how true is that, or how will it really work, cos i am still not utterly convince getting attached will actually help you in any emotional way possible..its all in the mindset of ppl i think...yes i do feel left out and all this crap but come mon man, its all because you people cant stop pressurizing me into thinking bout so.. "why are you still single" "come i hook you up to some girls" " eh you better get a girl before NS" etc etc.. lol i laughed and i will laughed again at this..im trying not to think about it soo much and you people are not helping me..nvm, im strong..i will hold hopefully.. its just a matter of time before i crack
and go totally insane, and eat my veggie and forgo junk food..love, lust or just curious? these 3 factors are gonna determine my future with regards to relationship...im being realistic here, as far as i know, if i want it, it be with a few girls cos i cant decide between them..LOL (ps: this is the first post that has the correct time and date on it hehe =P )
smoke on the water.
7:45 AM
