Friday, July 30, 2004
technically a song i find fit for me now =)
The Space Between
by Dave Matthews Band
You cannot quit me so quickly
There's no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you love
The space between
The tears we cry...
Is the laughter that keeps us coming back for more
The space between...
The wicked lies we tell and hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again
These fickle fuddled words confuse me
Like will it rain today
We waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we’re playing
We’re strange allies
With warring hearts
What a wild eyed beast you be
The space between
The wicked lies we tell and hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again
Will I hold
Look at us spinning out in the madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like the devil in the church
In the middle of a crowded room
All we can do my love
Is hope we don’t take this ship down
The space between
Where you smile and hide
Is where you’ll find me if I get to go
The space between
The bullets in our fire fight
Is where I’ll be hiding waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splashed in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into your room
The space between
our wicked lies is
Where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand
Cause we’re walking out of here
Right out of here
Love is all we need dear
The space between
What’s wrong and right
Is where you’ll find me hiding
Waiting for you
The space between
In your heart and mind
Is the space we’ll fill with time
The space between
smoke on the water.
12:07 AM
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
sighed..it is about 2.10 am by the time i write this down..and i have a class in 7 hours time..but i have to pen this down, if not, i doubt i can sleep..
i guess i still have feelings for her..no matter how hard i try, no matter how i fight, it just keeps coming back..its like the sun rising and setting, you cant just stop it or ignore it..i know i try, time and time again i am .. but she is like the dream that keeps haunting me..like that wind that keeps on blowing, like that rain that keeps on coming.. honestly, when this happen, i feel lost..i dont know what to do..i know some may think this is wrong and i should just let gooo..
i tried, im trying, it aint easy..i dont want sympathy or even understanding..i just need to write this down..i know ppl are gonna read this..but i have nothing to hide..akways in the neverending battle to control my emotions..wwhy/? because it keeps my head clear..at times it is clouded and i will lose focus..but i guess im only human...a few days back, a friend said my nick is always mushy..now i guess i know why..its like Jerkyl and Hide..There is this Hide in me..someone i myself not quite understand..
but it dont matter because the purpose of me doing this is to gain peace..hopefully it works for now anyway..
smoke on the water.
9:30 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
sighed its about 11.45pm now and im suppose to do my report now..easier said than done man... i mean i know its the weekend and all..but from what i learn and become during poly, it is always nice to spend the weekend doing nothing =) of course i didnt do nothing, i did some work here and there trying to move that progress meter up by soo much...alast, i am only flesh and bone...maybe im just pushing myself too much? i dont know, i cant never judge how much must i push myself....just look at the way i eat, at times like a pig, trying to force, trying to masticate, trying to stuff as much food as i can =)..just look when i cycle, when is enough? till my knee is screaming in pain? till my back is crying out? till my legs burnt in lactic acid? hahahaha i guess in a way, i just love pushing myself..that what makes me human..its not bout love nor hate nor jealousy or even anger...just pushing myself..of course i dont do that all the time...
recently i skipped karate training because i was just too darn tired from school..and i felt abit feverish..unwise to push myself cos it can affect me in the long run...so it is true, i do think ahead sometimes..visionary as the internet questionaire say so ;) which brings me to the fact, i guess its ok for me to slack during the weekend...i mean i spend 5 days already studying and doing school stuff.. of course there are projects and schedule to follow but i should manage..i always do..so people, no matter how busy you are or what...just give yourself a break sometime ok? especially to that few ppl * you should know who you are* dont be too hard on yourself...it saddens me at times..life may not be as short as some ppl say it..but it aint that long either..my advice? just hang loose and dont be too uptight...like a traffic junction, there are times to be red, yellow and green ..cheers matey
smoke on the water.
11:42 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2004
smoke on the water.
5:30 PM
Saturday, July 17, 2004
ok my drug problem is solved..found out how to synthesize acetaminophen which is your paracetamol, your panadol ah...anyway im going to bay beats for the 2nd time today...thankfully not alone but by god it was hard just to get ppl to go with...sadded as they say..hahaha but who cares eh? im comfortable being alone myself hehehe but its a nice place to go man..its a place where i actually find inner peace =) ok lah its rock and its loud loud music but deep deep down inside, it was nirvaaannaaa..hahahaha maybe because i didnt really mosh ;P cos the security there, hehehe i dont wanna get drag away!!
smoke on the water.
4:10 PM
Friday, July 16, 2004
URGH!! ok anyone who is reading this and you are an expert pharmacist or some sort or some drug maker for GSK or Schering Plough or what...i need your help...im suppose to find another drug other than aspirin to be synthesize using a pilot plant...i tried acetaminophen, ibuprofen and antacid...but to no avail...aspirin is easy to make cos the reaction is simple but the rest is just too complicated!! hahahahaha oh man, sighed
nvm i guess later when i come back from bay beats and i will try again ah..damn sian now cos its friday and here i am doing school work! lol..my school life is not pretty much draining the mojo out of me!! and its only coming to 3rd week of school...amazing man, just amazing.. oh ya anyone who can help me...mail me at
ts_toocool85@hotmail.com but i doubt help will come through my blog..hahahahaha
smoke on the water.
4:52 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
sighed, currently doing a work on williamson synthesis...its a reaction where alcohol is converted into ethers...cool stuff actually...and im trying to convert this laboratory process into a viable commercial process that is feasible for plant usage...LOL..so now taking a break to do this blog man..
today i managed to chat with another girl who added me in her friendster..thing is, we dont know each other..that is the 2nd time that this happend..cool stuff man!! lol she is 16, swiss cottage sec ah..doing her Os now but other than that, i cant tell much cos i dont know her yet =) hope to keep anyone who is reading this updated ;) and please dont get any wrong ideas ah.. im not despo or what..she added me, not the other way round hehehehehe
oh ya and i able to watch bourne identity, the movie i thought i havent watched before but in fact after watching half of it, i realised i somehow have watched it before...as syahmi said earlier, im weird..lol couldnt remembered i watched it..hahahaha
smoke on the water.
11:09 PM
Sunday, July 11, 2004
JOKED system..tried like 3 times for phyllis to be added in...some error shit crap! *%&)(#%&)!%&()!&% man computers and network system and so forth can be a pain in the arse sometimes..sometimes, too often! and crap i cant find a decent batman pic on the net...what do i have to do to get things done right around here eh? ^-` ...ok that pic was suppose to be me giving that eyebrow looked but obviously i dont know how to do it..lol
crap man, choked on my saliva!!! nearly puked!!! man...how i can choked on it? i have no idead what so ever..now my Esophagus is painful cos i forced back the vomit back!! hahaha i dont like to puke, cos i hate wasting the food i ate or my gastric juice...sooo wasteful!!! every single juice counts =) ok im weird but hey at least im not anorexia right? okok better stop looking for batman pics and do my project, sighed
smoke on the water.
10:15 PM
Friday, July 09, 2004
no body said it was easyyyyyy~~~~~ no one say its gonna be this hard~~~~ hahaha coldplay, the scientist..a nice song to listen to at 12.20 am in the morning! hahaha damn shagged now cos just came back from training and all...managed to watch OC though!! hahaha that seth dude is wow, 2 girls after him...i dont mind being in his position man...:P hahaha dream on right? yeah guess so ;) today is friday and it like signifies the ending of my first week of the first sem of a new academic year of SP man!! and man do i have lots of stuff to do!! i have to be like in 5th gear by next week man! coooool, didnt feel this busy for quite a while..
oh ya, phyllis asked me to paragraph my blog..hahaha here you go dear...can? =) hhehehe anyway im gonna increase my gym session to twice per week man..once per week is too slow...ok lah it means more money, but its money well spend! nothing beats the feeling of pumping iron.,,you ppl reading this blog should go to the gym too!!!! tone up that abs and stuff baby! today i ate my lunch at *5.30pm* alone...sighed, so sad right? didnt have anyone to eat with me..and couldnt be bothered to try and contact everyone to ask them...haha and why lunch at 5.30pm cos i had breakfast at 12 ++ afternoon and then didnt touch food till that time..ate at Jumbo, roti john..the biggest i ever saw! couldnt finish it, just ate most of the part which has eggs and meat etc etc..
wohoooo going 3rd paragraph and its getting too long, ppl dont like long stuff, they wont bother reading the whole blog! ok man that is it for now!
smoke on the water.
12:20 AM
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
)&#%(_*^#)%&!+#%&!#& freaking internet is conking up on me again man!!! i cant access most of the freaking webby, cant surf!! cant do researched!! but nvm, i relax first cos tomorrow school start at 12 noon..wohooo shiok ah!!! oh ya, my comp is up and running now, buttttt i still have a long way to go...need to get more stuff, meaning more money...lol and chahat wants me to bring her shopping..$$$$$ money money money, all the money in the rich man's world...*ok the lyrics might be wrong* :P but that song is niceee...got the disco beat to it, ..ok better get back to doing my research...later
smoke on the water.
10:37 PM
